Ghost and I are ready to get down some initial thoughts stemming from Dec. 21st, 2012. Gronos is still silent but in good time. Ibiza, etc...
As for the reality of the situation, the practical acknowledgements, our month and a half journey into the sacred date was less than stellar. I and Ghost had a marked increase in meditation at times yet fragmentation between my body, mind and spirit was also present. I felt as if one of the three was usually pulling the other two, with one drastically trailing on the end.
An event in my life which does not need to be discussed recently had a jarring effect on each of the three trinity components. The variable disharmony between the three was tiring, as I was pulled in three directions rather than simply two. The sometimes distressing but mostly strengthening event of being torn in three directions at varying strengths came with the need to face the hurt of the past and the uncertainty of the future. I focused an extreme amount of energy on resolving these issues but inevitably pushed too hard at points, sabotaging my hopes.
Slowly the rhythm of life returned to my feet and heart and I made the final steps to move on from what I was all as December 21st was days away, if not on that day. My social and home life remained rather static throughout the last six weeks. I am gladly unemployed, even overjoyed and count my blessings under a new light. Naturally following a preference with refined, minimalist philosophy towards life's problem and life's creative environment, I quit my last job. Forcing myself to begin the process of deconstruction once again, I no longer wanted even the ability to want.
After a spiritual journey which truly began at age 17, I stand days after the 21st and fully realize the work I have done but also work I must still do. I was not prepard to tap into the energy of the source at the time. But that is how a journey runs sometimes...
Kuru/Speak Like a Child - Jaco Pastorius
As for the reality of the situation, the practical acknowledgements, our month and a half journey into the sacred date was less than stellar. I and Ghost had a marked increase in meditation at times yet fragmentation between my body, mind and spirit was also present. I felt as if one of the three was usually pulling the other two, with one drastically trailing on the end.
An event in my life which does not need to be discussed recently had a jarring effect on each of the three trinity components. The variable disharmony between the three was tiring, as I was pulled in three directions rather than simply two. The sometimes distressing but mostly strengthening event of being torn in three directions at varying strengths came with the need to face the hurt of the past and the uncertainty of the future. I focused an extreme amount of energy on resolving these issues but inevitably pushed too hard at points, sabotaging my hopes.
Slowly the rhythm of life returned to my feet and heart and I made the final steps to move on from what I was all as December 21st was days away, if not on that day. My social and home life remained rather static throughout the last six weeks. I am gladly unemployed, even overjoyed and count my blessings under a new light. Naturally following a preference with refined, minimalist philosophy towards life's problem and life's creative environment, I quit my last job. Forcing myself to begin the process of deconstruction once again, I no longer wanted even the ability to want.
After a spiritual journey which truly began at age 17, I stand days after the 21st and fully realize the work I have done but also work I must still do. I was not prepard to tap into the energy of the source at the time. But that is how a journey runs sometimes...
Kuru/Speak Like a Child - Jaco Pastorius
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